Chinese New Year

*thought of the day*

on the 1st day of Chinese New Year, things are rather different this year. Is it only me or everyone is goin thru the same thing, celebrating Chinese New Year ain't like the previous years. As I got older, the atmosphere gets duller. So wat is the reason behing this?

I remember when I was younger, well, 5-10 years back? I used to be looking forward in celebrating CNY. The lure of the "ang pau" red packets, fire works, playin with cousins & etc. Well, tat was way back long ago and now I'm all grown up and this kind of things don't really attract my attention. Since few years back, CNY is like go visiting friends house, stay out late at night, drinking with friends, spend time with girl friend, gambling and etc which is rather understandable because of the circumstances.

But the thing is do I miss the good old times? Well, in life, we always have to move on, ppl change thru time. The good old memories will always b with me but as I said I hav to move on.

Chinese New Year is a good opportunity to spend time with family when forgive and forget happens ;) which I'm very glad.
Hmm...Got a lil stuck here. I think tat's about it.

Wishing all my readers a happy and properous Chinese New Year. All the best in ur every endeavour. Cheers!

Life is...

*thought of the day*

Have u ever thought what is to become to u tomorrow?

The future is always in a bleak sight(to me) as any decision made at present will not always bring the exact result that I wanted(not even close). Come to think about it, maybe our life is like a character in a book. What ever the outcome, decision making is already been decided by the author of the book. But I don't really believe in destiny or whatever it is called.

Yes! Maybe life is all about decision making. Every decision counts as ur future depends on it. "Ur future is in ur hands"as they say.
So far I'm quite glad that I made a few good decisions. Along the way, I made some very bad decisions too.

But my decisions had always been affected by one "thing" which is rather uncomfortable for my parents, "Enjoy life!". I think most of them out there would really disagree with me on this.

after almost 2 decades,(leave out the 1st & a 1/2 decade, as I was only still a child) I found that life is so short. It is uneasy for me to find out that people die at such a young age from 20-40 years old. So I was thinking, what if something happens to me the following day?(touch wood!!!) or mayb I'm diagnosed for sickness which is uncurable. Well, I'm very grateful that so far I haven't been diagnosed by any near death sickness(touch wood again!!!Crap!) but I always hav this doubtful feeling.

So I have this "thing" in me that asked me to enjoy life if possible. Not that I'm suggesting that I shud b having fun 24-7. That is crap. I feel that people who spent so much time on work, shud b doin sumtin they enjoy most, at least or it is goin to be too late when they found out that they missed the chance to do so. For me, studies still come 1st but I wun b studyin like other people, study like mad cows, grazing the fields non stop. Why not find a time, take this chance/opportunity to spend time doin what u love most or mayb with loved ones...that is life. All work n no play = no life. Do something memorable, which will forever b u with until the next life/after death.

Like Forest Gump said"Mama says life is like a box of chocolates" which I don't really know what it means =p

Every now n then, I would try to do things that only can be done durin our younger age, try everything if possible especially at our age. Mayb my parents hav thought about this when they were younger but mayb they dun hav the opportunity to do so. If given an opportunity, take it. "U never know, Lightining might Strike" (taken from Meet Joe Black)
That's all for now. Cheers!

Age Gap

bL: What is wrong with the older generation nowadays? Can't they understand how we, teenagers feel?

fR: Chill man. Just be cool. Let them say what they want. Maybe there is a lil mix up with communication between u n ur parents. Take it slow. Be cool!

bL: Yea, mayb ur rite!

*thought of the day*

As u approach the age of 20 n began to think, ur parents were once in ur position, most probably goin thru the same experience as u did/do n it is pretty obvious(dumb of me to say this) that they hav the rights to decide the dos n donts which is rather annoyin as u get older. But again why dun they just leave their children alone n let them figure out the good & bad/dos & donts thing. I believe that tis will help the child a lot rather than being controlled by the parents.

For the past 4-5 years, I realised the problem might b the age gap. But sum ppl say it is bcoz of miscommunication. So I was thinking how do I link both of them together. The one thing which is pretty obvious is the way the parents n child interpret each others conversation. The misinterpretation is caused by the age gap as both party(both parents n child) come from different generation.

As for starters, parents have the tendency to speak as slow as possible so that the child will listen n understand every single word they say but the problem is, kids nowadays have very active minds n to them as this words get into their brain, processed at a slower speed and as more words come in n as this goes on & on, only certain words take place in the memory bank till it happens, BOOM, they got fed up n take it as nagging(a famed word among teenagers nowadays). On the other hand, when kids speak to their parents, they tend to keep it short n simple as they expect their parents to be smart enough to interpret what their trying to say and in the end brings to a conclusion, misinterpretation.

Have u every thought what wud it be like if ur parents belong to the same generation as u r?Ever wonder why ur brother/sister, or ur uncle/aunt(younger bro/sis of ur parents) understands u more than ur parents?

As I grew older, I found out tat I couldn't take even a 1 minute talk from my parents n the 1st thing tat came up to my mind at the moment, NAGG!!! But I did found out tat after a few moments it might sounded like a nagg in the beginning but it ends up to be a very good advice from my parents. So nowadays all I do is listen listen listen n I only speak up when something really goes wrong(it always happen =p)

So my advice to everyone out there, "be cool" when u hear words coming out from ur parents mouth, "stay cool" as u will understand how important are the words coming out from ur parents mouth and "chill" when things get a lil heated up =p Cheers!^-^ thanks for reading again.

bL: Today I felt strange, strange as in everything in my brain seem wana blow. Mayb it is about time to share my 'stuffs' with others. Perhaps this is a right decision. I have been keeping everthing to myself ever since I was left alone in the dark, n tat was like, ages ago? Never did it came across my mind tat by tellin others n letting others to listen to ur 'stuffs' will help to ease my burden, until someone close approached me, but still I'm very reluctant to tell others. I rather have things in my own hand, solve it in my own way.

dR: Mayb it is time for you to change your way of thinking. Sooner or later.

bL: Mayb I shud. Thank you dR.

*thought of the day*

when u come to tis age, it is rather unbelievable tat u r turning 20 soon. People always say tat it is best for ur frens to judge u rather u judge urself coz frens are like ur mirrors but i say otherwise. Sometimes in the dark, u suddenly felt strange, u gave a thought of wat happened the pass 12hours, 12 days, 12 months, 12 years?n u find urself alone in the dark, only u can see wat had happened in the pass. Then questions start to come across ur mind n always the familiar question "What if?". I wud say u can only see ur true n real self. What if the way u are in front of ur frens is just mere acting? Isn't it an absolute wrong judgement if u were to ask an opinion from ur fren about urself? But sometimes ur true colour will shine unexpectedly and ur acting will be just an ignorance to others. At this moment I believe that most of us will b grateful that we are given a company, a companion, a fren who we can talk to when it matters most.

so after almost 20 years, what matters most? I would rather say frens. My life has been one big ball filled wif air n the air inside are like my frens. As like the air, u will lose contact with sum of ur frens but u will make new ones. So the big ball will forever remain in size. As for the lost air, mayb sum day...it will be in the big ball again but still air is around u, just like strangers, u never know mayb u will meet up wif an old fren across the sea.

well...that shud be it.Thanks for taking ur time to read tis so called blog and thanks to this webby for givin tis opportunity to me.There wud be more to come soon. Cheers!!! ^-^