Failure...is not an option

It has come to the point...
So close to the finishing line
Yet so far from the goal...
Same shyt, different time
Dejavu? Cliche? You bet

I received a lecture/advice from a friend not too long ago...which kinda gave me mirror image of what is happening in my life at the moment. Care to know what is going?
I have put myself into a position where I can no longer set my priorities right...again.
Everytime I get the same words coming from everyone "Set your priorities right, Studies > All" and yet, my brain just can't accept that command. Obviously something is wrong with me.
In the beginning of the year, I thought this year would be a great year for me. I had a great feeling about this year and it just came to me that way. But as time passes by, I realise that I was deceived all this time. (Been saying the same shyt again and again, is this just part of life or is it my fault that it is repeating itself like an endless loop) Somebody out there needs to smack me on the head and wake me up.
I am stoping here for tonight, my Cold isn't getting any better. I almost choked to death because was coughing heavily. If only...I choked...to...

sick and tired ben