Moments...

There are so many moments in life...so many of them that you hardly remember most of them, isn't that right? Well, wait a second, moments = memories? Hmm.Sigh, I'm lost. Erm, actually I wanted to talk about depression, erm, no, sadness, erm, whatever that is negative actually. I just feel sad after I found out that MU lost 2-1 at home to Blackburn Rovers. Quite sad actually. I have high hopes that the club will do well this season and to drop points like that and especially at home, I have nothing much to say. Sometimes I do question the ability of the manager to pick the squad for the game but who I am to do that? Then, this leads to another point I am trying to make in today's blog. Trigger effect. Sometimes, or most of the time, things happen in a "trigger effect" way. It's already the second week of the break, classes will be starting soon and I haven't done a single meaningful thing, besides soccer. Sometimes I wonder how life be so pathetic? Or life is so unfair? The thing you want most is the hardest to get, sounds familiar? But I think I can't be complaining too much because I think life has been kind for me, well, to a certain extend. So, back to the "trigger effect". There was this one time, my boss asked me "Ben, it's break already, not going anywhere? Look around you, your friends are hanging out with girls during the break and what are you doing? Staying at home alone in your room" Pathetic, sad but true =(. Then a friend asked, "Having break right? No target?" adding salt to the wound =(. As I mentioned on the previous entry, I believe I don't have time for 'socialising'. Even my dad asked me on the phone a while ago, "Not going anywhere during the break?" I was kinda shocked, my dad asked me that question, normally he would go like "Are you doing your revision?" sigh, how ironic. "Trigger effect" one bad thing comes along another bad thing. My mum told me that she couldn't get cheap tickets for me to go back end of the year. Bad news? Sort of. If I don't go back, what the hell can I do over here? Rot? Sigh, such is life.


Moments in Life
One day I was in the car, on my back home from work, then something just reminds me of some stuffs happened in the past. I remember I used to drive to college back at home, wake up like 6 in the morning, sometime my mum wakes me up, I so miss that time, miss my mum so much, feels like yesterday, when I was just 17-18 years old. I also remember sometimes I wake my parents up, as they have to prepare to go to work. Then I will have my shower and grab my stuffs and head to college with my Beetle. Sometimes I even give rides to my friends, who just live around the corner. Ah, the good old days. Back then, my dad is seldom at home and I just run riot. Come to think of it, I think my mum had a hard time back then, I wasn't thinking at all =( I am being a bad boy. I go out early in the morning, then come back late at night, it's like home is just a place for me to sleep. Oh yea, I miss that Honda Civic too =(. Drived to college a few times. Just few like I own the street when I drive that car =b me and some moments with the car, I think my mum likes the car a lot too. She gone throught a lot with the car, thick and thin. Sent flowers with car, go to work with the car and the car broke down a number of times, sometimes the air-conditioner turns out to be a heater instead. And my papa, hmm, looked so old already. I saw his photos when he was younger, looked so different. Sigh, time just flies, even you ponder for just a moment. Is about time my dad retire, soon. I don't feel like he should still be working, he who walk from such path, should be enjoying himself already. Sometimes I feel it is my fault, that I always let my parents down =(. So the pressure is on, I bet he is counting the days till I graduate.
A picture I took before I left for Adelaide this year. Everyone looks happy? You bet =).

Dis-me

I wonder where do people get the motivation to update their blog almost everyday. For me, I am having a hard time doing that. But I promise myself to try to blog before I sleep everyday. Today I went for classes after a long week break, medical break that is. I knocked on my head remember? (check previous post) Anyways, I decided to go for classes since I can't bear with the fact that I do nothing at home. Alright, let's update on stuffs that happened yesterday and today.

Champion
I was involved in a soccer competition on Sunday, which started from 9 am in finished at 5pm. My team played a total of 6 games, 4 games in the group stage, semi-final and the final. My whole body is aching now because haven't really stressed my body this much, eventhough the games are only 30 minutes long and the fact that I wasn't totally involved in the entire game (mostly 10-20 minutes for each game). Each of us got a champion's medal and the winner of the competition earned themself a hamper which I don't really care about. I was really happy that I'm able to play with such a great team (a number of good players but not all). During the group stages, the games weren't that tough. Most of the job were done by the midfields and forwards (attacking half, I'm part of the midfield =b) so the guys playing at the back were pretty comfortable and the goalkeeper hardly touched the ball. Then the cramps start to crack in. That's where I start to worry that I wouldn't be able to carry on. Then we had a lunch break before the fourth game which is pretty long, I even refereed a match =b. Then come the semi-final and final match where we won on penalties, our goalkeeped made a magnificent save that totally surprised the person who took it cause the ball was heading the top left corner of the goal. Well, that's that.

Disappointed
What more can I say when I received my assignment back today? Totally disappointed. I have no idea that my tutor would be so strict on his marking but oh well, I suppose I can learn a lot from this. I didn't know that art is about precision, I thought it's how one express oneself. In this assignment, I have to draw Homer Simpson, yes, Homer Simpson. I only got a P1+ and the assignment is worth 15% -.- sigh. I have to do better in the next assignment which requires me to draw glass bottles which is not as simple as you think.

Studies
So I guess it's back to business again. Study!!! Someone told me, "You should enjoy yourself when you are studying, studying in Uni is the time when you enjoy yourself because once you enter the working world, the commitment..." sigh, how do you enjoy studying? Questions to be answered again. Hopefully I can get answer when I dream tonight. -end-

Petite Me

How absent minded...I did not even post for my 21st birthday -.- Next week will be Week 7 already and I'm still taking my own sweet time to get used to the study environment. Not that I'm doing really badly, so far so good, I think. I'm currently on medical leave, want to know why? Because I got injured while playing indoor soccer, knocked me poor head on the wall, had like 5 stitches (previously I did mention that I have about 10 but actually not, went to the doctor today and found out that I only had 5 >.<) Hmm, my post seems to be a little jumbled up, but head back to 17th of August.

My 21st Birthday
As you can see from the pic, the location is not really exquisite =b This picture is taken at a good friend's place. Well, it doesn't really matter does it? Anyways, we had a buffet dinner in Glenelg. We took the tram from the city to the beach(Glenelg). On the way back to the city, the tram stopped at one of the stations because it seems that the power supply has been cut. But after about 20-30 minutes(I think), the power supply is back on and off we head back to the city. Drove to my friend's place and yea, have my birthday cake there -.- erm...it was nice and simple, just like I hoped for as I'm not a fan of celebrating birthdays. At least it wasn't as surprising as the one my buddy had when I was back in Malaysia, that is one hell of a birthday that I will remember =b.

My head
Yes Yes. That's me alright. Me with a bandage around my head. Don't I look cute? Haha. Hmm, well there is nothing much I can say about it since I already mentioned it above. I couldn't really recall how my head got bumped into the wall. A guy from the opposition team came to me and asked whether he pushed me, I said "I have no idea" but oh well, I suppose I'm just unlucky. To be more details, I remember blood was all over the floor and I felt a suddent numbness after my head made contact with the wall. Kinda scary, the first thought in my head was like "Shyt, am I goin to be a vege? I knocked my head hard" After that some stranger sent me to a local hospital and I was attended by a female doctor after I gave my details to the counter at the emergency area. A nurse gave me the stitches and it took quite a while, so I thought must be at least 10 stitches since I have a separate cut -.- and I found out today that I only have 5. What big difference. Maybe the doctor missed out a stitch or two. Had the stitches taken out and the doctor said the wound is still open and advised me to rest. REST? I'm planning to play soccer tomorrow!!! -.-

Flow
Go with the flow? I need to get a snow cap to cover up my head -.- because it will be damn ugly since a patch of my hair is missing and the wound is visible. I don't wana scare anyone away -.- Anyways, I wanted to post on a new member of my gaming collection, yup, I finally got myself a Playstation Portable aka PSP . I don't have any photos of the new baby yet and my room is in a mess, so I can't exactly find a good spot to take a picture of it. Maybe I will do it in my next entry. I will end this with a "thought of the day". I just checked out a few blogspots and something just came to my head. How to be a successful person in life? Do you want to be successful? I have always been following the flow. What flow? What happen shall happen? I envy people who are successful, and sometimes I wonder, are they any better than me? or worse? Questions to be answered. Hopefully I can find these answers as soon as possible because tide wait for no man. End