The End or the New Beginning of a Chapter?

Yesterday I felt strange. Is it because she went back to HK?Hmm =( miss her so much eh...sometimes I just have weird things going about in my head and it is too hard to handle. I suppose I really have to start planning my studies or else I would not be able to reach my goal. I just asked this friend of mine, is it possible for me to get into AU again, hmm, hopefully I will be able to but really really have to work hard. But =( "work hard", I have not been doing that for a long time, I suppose I have to do it step by step eh, do not want to disappoint those close ones to me =/. Sometimes the future ahead is so unpredictable, even I am worried what is going to happen the next second, recently I saw an interesting quote which I am not quite sure what the exact words are, but I will go look for it again and post it in the next blog.

Week 6, and everything seems slow paced, should I increase the pace and go on my own?I doubt I will do that, but I think an excellent student will definitely do that, am I one? On my back home from class, I thought to myself, actually what is my problem, lazy? stupid? or what? Haha, come to think about it, I find it quite dumb to think myself as a stupid person. So perhaps "lazy" suits me more. So how do I solve this problem? A goal has been set, it is a matter of doing it or not and some actions have to be taken soon, spend more time at the library? Hmm, I might consider about that.

Sometimes I have doubts on myself, seems so useless like a maggot(baby insect, without legs, only a piece of white, translucent body that wiggles about doing nothing) maggot or faggot? LOL that is mean. So can I do well this time and prove people wrong that Ben is only just a maggot?or maybe be a grasshopper that always leap as high to reach higher grounds? That is up to me.
Well, it is almost 8am now, ready to go for class. Yesterday got a SMS and call from someone far far away "/, extremely happy and surprised. I suppose I would not be able to sleep if that person did not do that. Really miss her so much. As always, you will cherish someone more when he/she is not by your side. Erm, I think that's about it for today.

cheers,
Ben

Lived In Hell

In 15 hours time, my Dad will be on his way back to Malaysia! Phew...after 6 tough days is similar to 144 hours, those times are really really tough, feels like living in hell(no offense Dad, if I were you, I would take tat as a compliment =9) Just imagine, I, freaking, hardly spend time with my dad for the last few years and here he is, 6 freaking days in Adelaide, OMFG. For god sake, it was one terrible and intolerable experience, definitely my patience was tested. I know this is bad, shudn't be saying this but to hell with it, I really can't stand it anymore. Oh well, as I said, things will be back to normal after the amount of hours mentioned above. (I really hate the snoring, wonder how my Mum can stand it, tsk...)

Geez...I think I have been together with ' ' for almost 2 months, everything seems to be in order, and ' ' is goin back soon, on the 24th (yea...yea...still have to remind myself about tat) , the worst part is, I would not be seeing her till next Feb, which is another 3 months... =( Sad...well, let's change the topic. I'm having a small test this coming Wednesday, worth 10%. Hopefully I will b able to get full marks, then I can request a special present from ' ' ("/ hehe, this would be fun, I suppose some1 would know what I will ask for =9 hehe...notty Ben.
I think tat's about it for 2nite, hmm, it's been more than a month since I last wrote, wonder what I was so busy with...hmm *scratching head* anyways, tis week is week 5, having 2 weeks break soon, durin Xmas till New Year, so hopefully it would be hell of fun, but definitely I will miss ' '. Will miss ' ' so much =(

cheers
Ben